SHOCKING STORY!!! Married Woman Opens Up On Her Addiction To Men And S*x [Adults Only]

I think I realized I had a problem when I was
walking back to the house of a man that had
physically hurt me badly in the act of S*x,
and I was willingly about to give myself up to
him again.
Despite being terrified and it making me
tremble and sick, I somehow couldn’t stop
myself, I had to have my fix. Afterwards I
felt used, I hated myself for what I had
done, but that didn’t stop me. ‘It wasn’t just
men, it was pórn, dangerous S*x,
exhibitionism, everything was just…S*x, S*x,
S*x, which meant just about anything that
could give me that high.
The more intense, the more I needed, like it
wasn’t enough, I had become desénsitised to
it.’ Speaking in a recent interview, Becky said:
S*xaddiction is a hotly debated topic on
which psychologists simply cannot agree. An
addiction originally referred to a chemical
dependence on a substance that had physical
and psychological effects.
‘Behavioral’ addictions, for example to
gambling, shopping or S*x, are more open to
interpretation as they cannot be
scientifically understood. S*x does create
chemical reactions within us and some
psychologists believe that this can create a
sort of semi-physical dependency as well as
the behavioral element to this particular
‘addiction’.
It is quite commonly agreed that an addiction
is present when a person cannot easily stop
something, even when not stopping is
detrimental to their lives.
In Becky’s case she explains that her need
for S*x was creating very real difficulties
for her. ‘It was affecting other areas of my
life, my self esteem, the relationships I had
with my friends and my family, who by the
way could see what I had become, but I was
determined I was in control.’ She explains.
When asked why she felt the need to behave
this way Becky tells us ‘It really was like a
drug, the adrénaline, the fear, the ‘buzz’ was
intense, then the low afterwards was just
like a comedown, yet S*x seemed to be the
only way I felt appreciated or ‘good’ at
something.’
Although it is more common for men to admit
to S*xual addictions, and some of these
‘addictions’ surface only when an indiscretion
has forced someone to look at their
inappropriate behavior, there are women like
Becky who are finally coming out of the
shadows and discussing this issue.
‘I know where it stems from (Becky refers to
abuse in her childhood she does not want to
discuss), but even with the knowledge it’s not
as simple as just stopping a pattern of
behavior, I had to change everything including
the way I looked at myself.’
Thankfully Becky is now in a stable and loving
relationship and has received counseling.
Although her darkest days are behind her she
admits ‘I am learning everything from
scratch, relationships, boundaries, and my
own values.
It isn’t easy but when you love someone you
do change, I have always been able to do
things for other people that I cannot do for
myself.’
‘I still place very high value on S*x, I need to
feel wanted in that way or my world falls
down, if my husband say’s ‘not tonight’ I feel
like it’s the end of the world, but hey I am
finally having great, fun, non-dangerous S*x,
I want as much as I can get!’ She sums up.
Becky had counselling that she say’s ‘really
helped’ her but agreed that the biggest
change came from within.
If you are struggling with your desires and
think you need help, please don’t be shy to ask
for help.